Expectations can be a tricky thing. So on Day 20, I am so exhausted from another full day of teaching my own classes...the Bikram Yoga studio is probably the last place I want to be. My last class has just ended. It's 8:30pm. The torrential downpour that's happening outside is not making this any easier. But oddly, I'm looking forward to the 9:45pm class. This is definitely a case of mind over body.
I decide that the only way I am going to be able to have a productive class is to have no expectations. To take it as it comes. I also decide that I need to operate from a place of least effort. To be so relaxed in the poses, that it requires me to practice with as much energy conservation as possible. The first 10 minutes of class are brutal. I have nothing to give physically. I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm tired!!!
But then my body starts to come alive. It is so used to the daily practice that habitually it knows what to do and where to go. I also don't have as many thoughts about anything tonight. I'm too tired to analyze which is turning out to be a good thing. I just go with the flow: a lesson I really could use in my own life.
I feel 100% better at the end of class. Somehow I've squeezed out day 20 managing my expectations on the mat. Way harder to manage my expectations off the mat but working on that one day at a time...
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