It's safe to say that I don't recall this ever happening before. On Day 17, I'm given another great gift. Another amazing class! I generally do not have 2 great workout days in a row so I'm extremely grateful for this moment as a start to the week.
Let's be clear. Class is still a struggle and it's still hard work. But today again I am managing the struggle with greater ease, patience and discipline. And then it happens. I'm a girl who prides myself on being ultra prepared for anything yet I somehow run out of water in class with 40 minutes to go. At first, I panic. Then I decide that I need to let it go. It will somehow be okay. You know what? It was more than okay. I finished class even better without the distraction of the water breaks I would normally take. I make a mental observation.
What in class is really based on what I want versus what I need? Obviously I need to drink water but how much of my water drinking is a break from the practice and a learned distraction? In what other ways are my wants getting in the way of what I truly need? This thought resonates so much with me that I take the entire night after class is over to ponder this. How can I begin to make more choices from a place of need instead of want? I decide to try it one day at a time. So as I'm going through my day today, I'm doing it more consciously. Deliberately asking myself " is this something that I merely want to do or is it something that I need to do?"
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