Some life lessons can be excruciatingly harsh and painful yet simultaneously sweet and life altering--once you open yourself up to the enormous potentiality of limitation. All this danced in my head late this morning as I watched the amazing Derek Beres lead us through an indescribable exotic blend of asanas, all part of the brand new EQ Yoga class Flow Play. So many lessons can be learned in observation and here I was on this day only able to observe. In my direction line of vision--3 vision of pure beauty, elegance and grace on the yoga mat.
The class unfolded in perfect unison and for a few minutes it struck me that I am constantly surrounded by such pure Beauty. Although I could not join them today, my mind wrapped itself around every exquisite move of their bodies. Drinking it all in. For a second or two, I thought about my own current limitation. But then it struck me, fully for perhaps the first time, how utterly powerful and beautiful and serene and perfect is movement in all its forms. Why haven't I ever really stopped and appreciated all the wonder of movement before?
Because I was always trying to get on to the next thing. Trying to be a better version of myself. Faster. Stronger. Smarter. Thinner. In the process, missing out on this one essential thing. They say that when you don't listen, the Universe will find a way to make you listen. And so here I was on Monday morning September 16th. Listening.
This week, I've been cleared to start doing 15 minutes of light cardio. This for the girl who could run for hours. Looking at the dynamic energy and pure bliss of everyone around me, I was also struck by another essential truth. The same beauty in movement that I was so awed at by looking at everyone before me, I had never really taken a moment to celebrate that beauty in myself.
Indeed it is all about the Flow. The Flow of Energy. The flow of creativity. The flow of love. But also about the Flow of Gratitude. And so in this moment I accept that it's pointless to try to get back to where I was before or who I was before. Maybe physically I will not be that person again. But I am going to soak up the things that I can do NOW. And for the 15 minutes of light cardio that I get to do on the Elliptical, I am going to go with the Flow.
The Universe has it's own distinct rhythm. Learning to be still long enough to listen and honor that rhythm is a lesson I continue to learn off the yoga mat.
